Dear Guillermo of 2005
A summary of rants and advice a letter dated to Guillermo of 2005
Off to college, goodbye high school, Although I know you did not enjoyed that ride, It's another hell of a ride your facing, you haven't got a single idea on what course to take and what university to go to. Your mom is telling you to get education, but you know teaching is not what you had in mind, maybe a veterinary, since you love animals, take mass communication your mom suggest, although mass comm is for gays.
You took an entrance exam, still wondering what course to take, you will see kirk your classmate back in high school his a bit early and got ahead of the line, you said "Hi" to him and manage to cut the line. You tow were gonna talk until you reach the examination room, you got separated, you will look at the test paper and see AB communication you checked it thinking it was not Mass Communication. Your wrong.
SLU, familiar faces will welcome you on your first day in college, you will stick with kirk all the time, you will scan your curriculum inside a jeepney, checked the major subject and got excited. Abner will be on block A with your crush Roxy, you will be in Block B with kirk. You will be seat mates.
Your circle of friends will grow, then you decide to go to audition for Tanhalang SLU. You will not pass the audition, Kirk will. Your heart breaks. Disappointed you were the damn director and playwright back in high school. You worked so hard on practicing but it's all worthless. You will try to be happy. Kirk sensed it he quit. You feel glad. Yet bad. Abner got on Glee.
You and Kirk will audition again for REPERTORY, this time you both got in. It was fun. He did not left you alone.
Second semester of the first year. You transfered to University of Baguio for a scholarship in Baguio Integrated Arts Guild "BIAG" a theater group where Larla Lapeña works. You left Kirk alone in SLU. You will feel terrible, yet happy. It was a fun start for you in UB, you've got to do what you love most. Theater.
You decided not to cut your hair after your crush Atreo Marie Pulido left and studied in Manila. You became active in Kabataan News Network with kirk. Doors open for the two of you and you still bonded. Abner decided to leave the Philippines and push for the American dream, You tried to attend to his "last slumber party" but you could not make it that night, instead you arrive the morning after when the all fun gone. Your pissed and sad with long hair,
BIAG will be dissolved on your second year. Now. What will you do? will you still study? That is the only scholarship you had. You will cry alone. Yes you are not rich. You can't afford it. Your still enrolled in that semester, your mom promised to work harder your brother stopped school and worked.
You did good as a regular student, high and impressive grades. You will soon realize that it you need additional support for your degree or you will fucking die you can's afford it.
You decided to become a Student Assistant. I know you hate to become a slave, but you have no choice. It was a swift process, and everything you expect is wrong. On the first day you got deployed without training. On the president's office, you also got in a government scholarship program that will aid a lot.
God know's what shenanigans you did in that office, from illegal to legal, from ass pulling to freakishly hard work. Although you are a silly little twat you manage to get away with some of it and made a mark to most of it.
Your grades suffered, your mom died. you did not cry. lowest point in your life. you want to die also, everything seems to end. well your wrong it didn't the clock still spins and you need to move on.
You will eat alone in the cafeteria, in fact you will be alone most of the time, and you will enjoy it somehow.you will have your first girlfriend but you did not get laid, you two will break up sooner than what you expect. Don't fall inlove with your seatmate she will just crush your heart. You will be single for a long time.
You will enjoy doing short films, you will realize that your talent will be your asset, you will produce direct and write your first film, and you will get astonishing rave reviews about it, you will become an assistant bureau manager of KNN. Your talent will be exposed internationally, although you will not be able to go to Netherlands, Amsterdam but your friend kirk will and he promised to take videos all the time so you wont miss out, and he did.
You will be having a hard time balancing your duty hours, academics, extra curricular and social life. That's why you will not be having any girlfriends for a very, VERY long time, but if you insist, it will just burn you up, eat you alive and let your heart suffer in a tremendous amount of pain, you will wish you were dead.
friendster will die soon enough, so your crappy facebook will be useful, you need to keep writing and keep this blog alive although no one actually reads it aside from your online buddy abner,
You will be the chief layout artist in your official student publication. you will soon become a nerd. you will try to re-invent yourself girls dig it and as soon as you know it. you will have sex in the office, locker room, swimming pools, make out in backstage, you will make a lot of girls cry. you will try alcohol, and puff some smoke, a couple of weed.
and you will hate yourself. because it's not you anymore. You will try to find yourself. looked into your past and soon you will be back on your feet with a healthy attitude. You will work your body, be buff and beefy. Concern about your health.
You will fall for this girl, she lives far far away. and all of a sudden you got your self a purpose, you made a promise to be with her in the future, if that' what you want. then you will find out that she has this significant other, you will loose your spirit and die of hopelessness.
but the good thing is.
after all of this. you will graduate, even though with little colors, your daddy will be proud, your brother will cry, and you will cry again with a smile on your face. You will be grant as Service Award with 4 years in total. You know every staff in the university, you will be close to the management, you will be popular among the lower years.
Whatever you do, whatever mistakes you will do, don't give up. don't ever give up. Because I know, you can manage and you can pass every piece of shit on your shoes. You will grow far more better than this. you got a whole life ahead of you now. make your choices right, and if you still want to get fucked up, make your mistakes as your base point kill it and be the best. I know it's hard. just always read the statement in your opening page, i placed it there for a reason.
“though no one can go back and make a brand new start,
anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.”-carl bard.
Off to college, goodbye high school, Although I know you did not enjoyed that ride, It's another hell of a ride your facing, you haven't got a single idea on what course to take and what university to go to. Your mom is telling you to get education, but you know teaching is not what you had in mind, maybe a veterinary, since you love animals, take mass communication your mom suggest, although mass comm is for gays.
You took an entrance exam, still wondering what course to take, you will see kirk your classmate back in high school his a bit early and got ahead of the line, you said "Hi" to him and manage to cut the line. You tow were gonna talk until you reach the examination room, you got separated, you will look at the test paper and see AB communication you checked it thinking it was not Mass Communication. Your wrong.
SLU, familiar faces will welcome you on your first day in college, you will stick with kirk all the time, you will scan your curriculum inside a jeepney, checked the major subject and got excited. Abner will be on block A with your crush Roxy, you will be in Block B with kirk. You will be seat mates.
Your circle of friends will grow, then you decide to go to audition for Tanhalang SLU. You will not pass the audition, Kirk will. Your heart breaks. Disappointed you were the damn director and playwright back in high school. You worked so hard on practicing but it's all worthless. You will try to be happy. Kirk sensed it he quit. You feel glad. Yet bad. Abner got on Glee.
You and Kirk will audition again for REPERTORY, this time you both got in. It was fun. He did not left you alone.
Second semester of the first year. You transfered to University of Baguio for a scholarship in Baguio Integrated Arts Guild "BIAG" a theater group where Larla Lapeña works. You left Kirk alone in SLU. You will feel terrible, yet happy. It was a fun start for you in UB, you've got to do what you love most. Theater.
You decided not to cut your hair after your crush Atreo Marie Pulido left and studied in Manila. You became active in Kabataan News Network with kirk. Doors open for the two of you and you still bonded. Abner decided to leave the Philippines and push for the American dream, You tried to attend to his "last slumber party" but you could not make it that night, instead you arrive the morning after when the all fun gone. Your pissed and sad with long hair,
BIAG will be dissolved on your second year. Now. What will you do? will you still study? That is the only scholarship you had. You will cry alone. Yes you are not rich. You can't afford it. Your still enrolled in that semester, your mom promised to work harder your brother stopped school and worked.
You did good as a regular student, high and impressive grades. You will soon realize that it you need additional support for your degree or you will fucking die you can's afford it.
You decided to become a Student Assistant. I know you hate to become a slave, but you have no choice. It was a swift process, and everything you expect is wrong. On the first day you got deployed without training. On the president's office, you also got in a government scholarship program that will aid a lot.
God know's what shenanigans you did in that office, from illegal to legal, from ass pulling to freakishly hard work. Although you are a silly little twat you manage to get away with some of it and made a mark to most of it.
Your grades suffered, your mom died. you did not cry. lowest point in your life. you want to die also, everything seems to end. well your wrong it didn't the clock still spins and you need to move on.
You will eat alone in the cafeteria, in fact you will be alone most of the time, and you will enjoy it somehow.you will have your first girlfriend but you did not get laid, you two will break up sooner than what you expect. Don't fall inlove with your seatmate she will just crush your heart. You will be single for a long time.
You will enjoy doing short films, you will realize that your talent will be your asset, you will produce direct and write your first film, and you will get astonishing rave reviews about it, you will become an assistant bureau manager of KNN. Your talent will be exposed internationally, although you will not be able to go to Netherlands, Amsterdam but your friend kirk will and he promised to take videos all the time so you wont miss out, and he did.
You will be having a hard time balancing your duty hours, academics, extra curricular and social life. That's why you will not be having any girlfriends for a very, VERY long time, but if you insist, it will just burn you up, eat you alive and let your heart suffer in a tremendous amount of pain, you will wish you were dead.
friendster will die soon enough, so your crappy facebook will be useful, you need to keep writing and keep this blog alive although no one actually reads it aside from your online buddy abner,
You will be the chief layout artist in your official student publication. you will soon become a nerd. you will try to re-invent yourself girls dig it and as soon as you know it. you will have sex in the office, locker room, swimming pools, make out in backstage, you will make a lot of girls cry. you will try alcohol, and puff some smoke, a couple of weed.
and you will hate yourself. because it's not you anymore. You will try to find yourself. looked into your past and soon you will be back on your feet with a healthy attitude. You will work your body, be buff and beefy. Concern about your health.
You will fall for this girl, she lives far far away. and all of a sudden you got your self a purpose, you made a promise to be with her in the future, if that' what you want. then you will find out that she has this significant other, you will loose your spirit and die of hopelessness.
but the good thing is.
after all of this. you will graduate, even though with little colors, your daddy will be proud, your brother will cry, and you will cry again with a smile on your face. You will be grant as Service Award with 4 years in total. You know every staff in the university, you will be close to the management, you will be popular among the lower years.
Whatever you do, whatever mistakes you will do, don't give up. don't ever give up. Because I know, you can manage and you can pass every piece of shit on your shoes. You will grow far more better than this. you got a whole life ahead of you now. make your choices right, and if you still want to get fucked up, make your mistakes as your base point kill it and be the best. I know it's hard. just always read the statement in your opening page, i placed it there for a reason.
“though no one can go back and make a brand new start,
anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.”-carl bard.
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